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chipotleYesterday was another "what am I doing here" kind of day. The last query I was running was killed by a sysadmin who sent me an "Optimize your queries" email, describing how I should do a date range check--rather than the way the MySQL manual tells me to do it. My boss and I rarely speak to one another, and he left my last invoice tucked away on my desk rather than forwarding it on to the CFO. The invoice before that, I still haven't gotten paid on. (Technically it's still within the "Net 15" terms but I have a suspicion it hasn't been forwarded.) I don't look studious at work any more, because I'm not feeling studious.
And that unoptimized query wasn't returning the right data as it was.
This is, as they say, a less than enviable position.
I remember my angst back at NetPoodles, wondering when the right time to jump was and the sense of relief I had at being pushed. Here it's not going to be a layoff if I get asked to leave, but I don't get unemployment benefits from this work anyway, so "leaving to pursue other opportunities" doesn't carry any extra downsides beyond the loss of income.
--which is a pretty steep downside, granted.
I'm likely to teeter on the edge here until I get pushed or I see even a hint of a soft landing. Another, even temporary, position close to what I want to do. A freelance contract. (A publishable manuscript for the press--but that's not going to be an income generator for a long time, I know.) The real horns of my dilemma: I'm not finding the spare time to start these things in my spare time.
In any case, it's time to head into work again.
And that unoptimized query wasn't returning the right data as it was.
This is, as they say, a less than enviable position.
I remember my angst back at NetPoodles, wondering when the right time to jump was and the sense of relief I had at being pushed. Here it's not going to be a layoff if I get asked to leave, but I don't get unemployment benefits from this work anyway, so "leaving to pursue other opportunities" doesn't carry any extra downsides beyond the loss of income.
--which is a pretty steep downside, granted.
I'm likely to teeter on the edge here until I get pushed or I see even a hint of a soft landing. Another, even temporary, position close to what I want to do. A freelance contract. (A publishable manuscript for the press--but that's not going to be an income generator for a long time, I know.) The real horns of my dilemma: I'm not finding the spare time to start these things in my spare time.
In any case, it's time to head into work again.
